I've been thinking about this ever since my little incident… I don't think I've ever wanted to die, and all of my suicidal thoughts mostly come from a desire to punish myself for not measuring up to expectations, or because I don't think that I could ever find the strength to change… or sometimes because I'm depressed and can't feel anything. Sometimes there are things I have a hard time dealing with because they frustrate me and I feel like I have a really low tolerance for that. But then I started thinking and I realized that if I could magically change myself into someone that I would like to be, then I probably wouldn't feel that way. And then I wonder if I can't just change myself into that without magic. So yeah, I think maybe it's possible to undo everything you've done and start over in a lot of cases, or at least, to make the best of what you have left.