It is very surprising the way private psychiatrists are charging people exaggerating fees like that. I mean, sometimes it does not even help. I realize seeing them does not help me at all and so are the medications. What I need it someone I can talk to and a place where I am free to express my feelings and don't have to put on a fake happy face to cover up my sadness all the time. I am not sure if I will ever be able to go through my depression and all, but I know if I ever did one day, I will still be in SF to help others. Right now, I can't do much but I would, if only I am able to.
I realize what I need is not paying a stranger to give me meds that will alter my brain chemicals and to listen to me talking crap. Someone I can trust and someone I feel comfortable confiding in is what I need, and in SF I can find some comfort for this is where I feel more belonging. Ordinary people don't know what its like to be us, so they tend to think suicidal and depressed people as a burden. But they never take time to ponder; why do we feel this way? But typically, people have to lose something completely or suffer just as much to realize how much they have taken for granted.
Most of these therapist, they are just 'doing their job', they have none or very little genuine compassion for their patients. Its just what they are required to do, people who truly wants to help others with their depression wouldn't take it as a chance to earn big bucks. I am not saying all therapist are no good. I mean, if they are really helping then its fine, but unfortunately, most people I know often tell me that its doing a little good for them in the end. I am experiencing the same thing. So, I have decided to help myself and if I can't do it, I know what to do. I hope you are able to find the right help for yourself..