I was thinking and something occurred to me. So I'll post it in the form of an open question here. For those of you who struggle with strong suicidal thoughts (I'll assume that's most of us), if you knew that in the course of your lifetime, your very existence would save 5 lives, would that be something worth living for? Now you may not think that's possible but none of us can really see all possible futures. The truth is, everything we do (and everything we don't do) has unforeseen consequences. They can be positive, negative or neutral. But it's the nature of life and living (and even of dying). Walking out your front door may save someone's life (or end it). Answering your telephone may do the same. You just never know. Someone said that it could be that my only purpose in life may be to serve as a warning to others. Which, I have to say, would be a great deal more comforting if I didn't know that many people ignore crystal clear warnings. But it is still some small comfort. What Am I getting at? What if I live to the ripe old age of 68 and I never accomplish anything that I can identify as worthwhile? But, by the same token, what if I'm laying on some sidewalk somewhere someday (when I'm 68) and some confused kid sees me and decides not to let that happen to him/her? Or, what if some woman sees me and knowing that she has problems that could be passed along to a child, decides it isn't worth the risk of bringing a child into the world? Wouldn't that count for something? My most basic feeling (besides feeling sorry for myself) has always been that I wish there was some way that I could prevent other people from having to go through the same things I have. Nothing really teaches empathy like experience.