If youd like to read my poetry....

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  1. ThoseEmptyWalls

    ThoseEmptyWalls Well-Known Member

    I post all of it on FC but I realise not everyone here is a member there..So, if you would care to see into my soul and get a glimpse of how my mind works - let me know. I will post my poems (yes right here in this thread)....
  2. carol2237

    carol2237 Guest

    Do it! *is excited*

  3. itmahanh

    itmahanh Senior Member & Antiquities Friend

    Cant wait. I find the pieces submitted here by the members so intriguing and so full of feeling!! Yes please do share!!
  4. ThoseEmptyWalls

    ThoseEmptyWalls Well-Known Member

    Heres my older poems from this year (file one of them on my computer)...
    A vivid flashback..

    Touch me there and hear me cry.
    Look at me in that way and watch me die.
    Hearing your voice,
    Again in my dreams,
    Seeing your face,
    It makes me scream.

    Waking up,
    I feel that old pain.
    Once again,
    Im not the same.

    Voices haunt me,
    Creatures hunt me.
    From the darkest shadows,
    I feel that fear.
    Never again,
    Will my mind be clear.

    Remembering vividly,
    Things from the past.
    I have that feeling,
    That the bad times last.

    Feeling sick,
    Feeling afraid,
    I close my eyes,
    Im never the same.

    Nothing Creeps?

    I wake up and I realise that my dreams are real.
    Darkness is around everything that I feel.
    Downing my pain with the newest medication,
    Still feeling bad,
    Like in total isolation.

    Hearing the words of those who dont understand,
    Makes me wish I was asleep again.
    In my dreams,
    I can feel at peace.
    At least until,
    He starts to creep.

    Opening my eyes,
    The night becomes clear.
    The red cars light,
    Makes me feel safe,
    Even its only because at that moment,
    Im awake.

    I look around,
    My safety net is there.
    For a moment,
    Things are clear.
    Maybe now I can go back to sleep,
    And live in a moment,
    Where nothing creeps.
    Grown up now.

    Many years have passed since then,
    But you are still under my skin.
    I remember you,
    In all that I do.
    You infected my life,
    Like a virus,
    That will always make me fight.

    When I grew older,
    You were still there,
    Looking at me,
    Like you had no care.
    Your evil eyes,
    Making contact with mine.
    You come up to me.
    You ask how I have been.
    You try to hug me,
    And you just grin.

    You want me to cry,
    You want me to run,
    But you dont realise,
    I wont let you have your fun.
    Im not afraid,
    Im grown up now.
    My midnight eyes...

    My tears come from deep inside,
    I cry out from my midnight eyes.
    My dark eyes,
    Show my soul.
    If youd bother to look,
    Then maybe youd know.

    My heart was crushed so long ago.
    Peices ground into ash,
    They fall like snow.

    Standing under the dark sky,
    Stars falling to come and hear me cry.
    Purple tears falling from those midnight eyes.
    Untitled short...

    Its like I took your sins into my heart.
    Ever since then,
    My life has been falling apart.
    Now its like,
    Everyone places their burden on me.
    They dont suffer,
    But I will for my eternity.

    Dancing in my misery.
    Drop after drop,
    I start to bleed.
    I am grey,
    And I am cold.
    Im frozen in my world,
    Thats currently unkown.

    My state of mind,
    I continue to design,
    As the bleeding stops.

    Next thing I know,
    Its dripping again.
    Grey and Cold,
    Im currently,
    Silence Broken...

    Poison was on my skin,
    Like a disease,
    I stood there with my blood falling,
    Into the dead leaves.

    In that wickedness you called your passion,
    You just looked at me.
    That carnival ride stopped,
    As my silence was broken.

    Dust filled my mouth,
    As I stood in the sand.
    A quickfall was happening,
    As I held your hand.

    Then the ash from my past,
    Started to fall down like snow.
    I carved my name into your flesh,
    Like someone did to mine,
    So long ago.

    I lay in the emptiness,
    And drifted away.
    Arms reach out,
    Waiting to be saved.
    Untitled Short

    Move the blade against my skin,
    Sign your name with every slice.
    This way your sure,
    I will always remember you.
    Just as Im sure,
    That you will always remember me.
    Wont last long...

    Laying in bed next to you,
    On nights when things are calm,
    I forget the world around me,
    And for a while,
    Life is sweet again.

    Then when real life starts to creep back in,
    I start to wonder,
    If I am asleep,
    And dreaming this nightmare,
    I call my reality.

    My mind slips,
    I imagine myself waking up tomorrow,
    And the past years,
    Being only a dream.

    But then I remember,
    That is is real.
    So I lay down next to you again,
    And try to forget,
    Try to make things calm,
    Have a loving moment,
    That wont last long.
    Falling, short...

    Waking up from this nightmare,
    Will never happen.
    I am meant to belong,
    In this devilish charm.
    Which in its own,
    Is not charming at all.
    It just sits and waits,
    For me to fall.

    I hide behind my empty walls,
    Thinking I wont make it thru.
    Falling asleep,
    Dreaming a dream.
    Seeing the faces of those I knew I loved.
    Wishing I could hold their hands.
    Falling into a black hole,
    Like the deadness,
    That I know.
    Set me free..

    A dark space.
    A dead place.
    A silence that rattles the soul.
    A invitation to places unknown.

    Its a deep feeling of love,
    That was lost some time ago.
    Its a feeling of searching the soul,
    Seeking answers.

    Its a brite light,
    On a dark soul.
    Its a purple heart,
    From which all emotion flows.

    Its what is inside me.
    Its what wants to be set free.

    If it wasnt for you,
    I would lay down and die.
    My life would end,
    With few knowing why.

    I bet,
    That even in death,
    My soul would ache,
    I would get no break.

    Even in my after life,
    Id be behind those empty walls,
    Falling on death ears,
    And bleeding..

    In my dreams,
    I see a face.
    Dark yet sweet,
    Someone for me to embrace.
    How to win a heart...

    We win someone over,
    By showing them that we care.
    We love them with all that we have,
    No matter what they do.
    Unconditional love,
    To pull our loved on thru.

    We dont let them break our hearts,
    As long as they dont do us wrong.
    We love them thru it all.
    We hold their hand,
    When they are falling apart.
    We tie around them,
    And then to our heart.
    So if they would fall,
    They wont be far away.
    We can pull that string,
    And save their day.

    I want you to win me over,
    I know that you could.
    Even though I am attached,
    My heart still burns for you.

    Show me that you want me,
    I might want you too.
    If only you would open up and tell me,
    You need me to help you make it thru.
    Because deep down,
    I know that I need you too.
    For Wyatt..*****

    There is nothing else,
    That helps me make it thru.
    Its in your eyes,
    Its only you.
    I am waiting for the moment,
    I am hanging by a thread,
    Thoughts of you,
    Are in my head.
    Inside me.

    I cant escape my cage,
    So many times I tried,
    Just to fail.
    Get me thru this nightmare,
    Wont you please?
    I can no longer controll me.

    Can you see the darkness inside me?
    No one would help.
    I cant accept myself.
    Theres a wild animal,
    Inside me.

    Inside I am crying,
    Every night.

    Why are these feelings inside me?
    How long will they stay?
    Who in this world,
    Can take them away?

    My insides scream,
    I wont make it thru the night.
    All of these things I have felt,
    You have never known.
    Who in this world,
    Can make it right?
    If you want to read more I have two more files on my computer plus some ones hand written from last year in my desk...
  5. carol2237

    carol2237 Guest

    Those are amazing hunny... please share more!

  6. ThoseEmptyWalls

    ThoseEmptyWalls Well-Known Member

    Its not over...

    I am on the edge,
    I feel Im about to fall.
    But its still not over.
    My mind is always in a knot.
    They are always under my skin,
    Pushing me closer to the edge,
    That long down fall.
    But even then,
    It wouldnt be over for me.

    I am dead inside,
    They dont know why.
    And its still not over..
    My pain...

    Im living in a world of pain.
    It cant get enough of me.
    It seems to like to ruff me up.

    Im sick of feeling like the only one.
    I just want you to take me by the hand.
    I would show you my world and wonder,
    If you could understand.

    I would ruther feel nothing at all.

    Numbness is better than agony.
    Happiness never seems to work.
    Pain is all around me.
    Please make me feel nothing.
    I have had enough.
    Take me by the hand,
    Maybe you will understand.
    Its to late?

    Nothing is what I expected.
    Everything is wrong,
    And no one has guessed it.

    No one will ever see the real me.
    I hear everyone say to me,
    That it will be alright.
    Still I feel that my life is worthless.

    I cant get back the world that I once knew.
    I cant get back the time I have waisted.
    Im broken inside.

    Still you say that it will be alright.
    But its to late..

    My life is broken.
    I feel I cant hang on.
    The needles are breaking my skin.
    I am on the edge,
    Im falling off.

    Under me is the ocean,
    Its calling out my name.
    It screams for me to fall in.
    And once I do,
    It wont let me swim.
    Standing Alone..

    Im walking down this path alone.
    Im thinking of home.
    No one knows that Im lost.

    Im standing on my own.
    Im remembering the ones I left alone.
    Forgetting about the ones who left me alone,
    When I needed them the most.

    I cant go back to that place.
    It makes me feel a big dot thats been erased.
    So now Im standing here alone.
    Run To Stay Alive..

    I want to say Goodbye,
    Then slip away from this life,
    But there is no time.

    I put my life in their hands,
    They took it away.
    I hide my mistakes,
    They caught up with me.
    Now, Im holding on for my life.
    When all I want to do,
    Is run for it.

    Its hard to think about it,
    The day I became what I am.
    Im holding on for my life.
    Deep inside,
    I want to run for it.
    I want to run for my life.
    That will be the only way,
    That I can possibly come out on the other end,

    I am already burning from the inside out.
    The fire ate up my soul,
    And it killed my heart.

    Someone poured that gas on the floor of emotions.
    When the time was right,
    They dropped the match.
    Now Im burning on the inside..

    I had fire in my eyes.
    I swear I never felt more alive.
    Now things are bad,
    And I am broken.

    I never meant to let my soul die.
    Its not fair when they say that I dont try.
    I had time on my side,
    A long long time ago.
    I had nothing to loose,
    At the start of my life.
    Now I am broken inside.

    Dont you dare tell me,
    That I dont try.
    I swear that I meant never to let it die,
    I never meant to let them start that fire thats now inside.

    I sit here in my chair,
    Seeing life pass me by.
    Im in so much pain.
    What little life I had,
    Is flashing before my eyes.

    I wonder if I will die.

    I am sitting here in this life.
    I am about to let go of everything.
    Its all slipping away from me,
    Including whats left of my sanity.

    I will wait for you...
    I will not die.
    But I cant be sure that I will make it out alive..

    I dont know whats going on.
    I have no idea what went wrong.
    I feel so empty.
    My life is gone forever.
    I cant help but feel alone.

    Things are so far from being clear.
    This world around me is a thick fog.
    Im not feeling any better.
    I tell myself that I will make it thru.
    But, I know thats a lie.
    I tell myself those things from time to time,
    To help scratch out another moment of time.

    This world around me,
    Will just dissapear.
    It will be gone forever.
    Then I wont have to scratch and fight,
    To make it thru,
    Another moment,

    That was my file 2...
  7. carol2237

    carol2237 Guest

    Wow. Those are amazing... have you considered writing a book...?

  8. ThoseEmptyWalls

    ThoseEmptyWalls Well-Known Member

    Nope...You have to have money to make money - I could not afford the publishers fees!
  9. carol2237

    carol2237 Guest

    *huggles* Well maybe in the future you can... really hun... they are wonderful poems...

  10. ThoseEmptyWalls

    ThoseEmptyWalls Well-Known Member

    *Heres the 3rd file on my computer that has my poems saved in it..Its all I have right now..I do have old ones somewhere on my desk that were hand written last year..I can take some time to type some of them in here if anyone would like to read them*

    I want to go back in time,
    And be with you.
    Just you and I,
    No one else.

    I want to go back to the days,
    When I was yours,
    And you were mine.
    Where nothing was important,
    But what went on between us.

    Now we are two people,
    Who are in a war with one another.
    Putting up our defences,
    Letting no one in.

    I miss the days,
    When I could talk to you.
    I miss the times,
    You held me tight.
    I miss the feeling,
    That everything is alright.

    I miss you dearly.
    I know you miss me too.
    Even though we live together,
    We are a million miles apart.

    I want to go back in time,
    When we held eachothers hearts..

    The rain is falling on my head,
    The tears of all my past,
    They are drowning me,

    I have cried an ocean,
    And I will sink in it,
    When my hole filled boat,
    Goes under.

    I dont know how I can keep up my breathing.
    It gets harder by the second.
    I just want to jump into my ocean of tears,
    And end it all.

    Let the rain keep pouring down,
    Let my emotional hurrican kick in.
    Let those waves,
    Drag me down.

    Im finding it hard to fall asleep,
    And forget this life.
    I wonder if you can see my pain,
    When you look in my eyes.
    I know you think,
    That I wont let anyone help me.
    Im ready to roll that dice.

    I have this look on my face,
    Like Im waisting my time.
    I want,
    You know what I mean.
    I want to be,

    Im sorry but I think I need to have a melt down,
    I am on the side lines,
    Trying to make things better.
    Still I feel,
    Im waisting my time.
    Loosing my grip,
    I start to cry.
    Can you see my pain,
    When you look in my eyes?


    I want to put my heart in a blender,
    I want to watch it spin around,
    Blend into the colors of the background.
    I feel like tearing the clock off my wall.
    I want to fold myself up,
    And dissapear.

    I like to close my eyes,
    So I can be blind to whats going on around me.
    Falling asleep brings a small bit of peace,
    At least until the nightmares start to creep.

    I want to take my purple heart,
    Smash it and throw it away,
    So it will have no more feelings.
    I am my own worst enemy,
    And I dont know how to make it work.
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