My problem is no one wants or even tries to be my friend. Everyone I meet seems to not like me for no reason. The guy that I loved, he rejected me and wouldn't have dated me if I was the last person on earth. And it seems like people are all in these different cliques but they are leaving me out of all of them. Even members in my family treat me like an outsider and I would never do it, but I wish I had the courage to commit suicide because I did have one friend who did care. His name was Dylan, but he was feeling the way I was--no one would accept him, no one ever talked to him, called him, invited him anywhere--just like with me. No one ever wanted to be his friend, so he killed himself in 1999. I wish I could just die and join him. I wish I had the courage to do that because I hate it here. I HATE it here. I tried to change things with a fucking petition to stop school bullying and it went nowhere--no gives a shit about trying to make a change, not when its coming from some dummy like me. I hate this world and this--this pain from my depression--sometimes it hurts so bad it feels as if Cancer or something is destroying your body and like you can feel every last pain....well no one gives a shit, and probably no one gives a shit here but I decided to post it on here since this was the "let it all out" forum.