Ignore this please

[Jess]

I couldn't think of anywhere else to post this. It's not really important and I figured here would be the best place where it would be covered up soonest.

Somedays I wonder why I'm so screwed up. Why does it have to be me that struggles. Why I can't find something to get rid of the pain I feel night after night. Because it's nights that are the worst, am I right? But then I realize how selfish that makes me seem. For wanting it to be someone else but me. I hate me even more...

I don't know what it is about me that makes people turn away. There's something in me that people just dont like. No matter how hard I try I can't keep friends.. I dont know why they don't like me. Even here, among people that can understand the pain and sadness that comes along as baggage from childhood problems... even here I am on my own.. with no one to cling to when the flood waters rise. :cry:

Sorry for taking up space.. just needed to...

~Jess

 

[Terry]

Jess :sad: :hug:

 

[expressive_child]

I certainly knows how it feels to be hated. People in school used to avoid me because they think I am some kind of psycho. When I speak to the school counsellor about my problems, she also avoided me after a few sessions. I know its because my depression and they way my folks was treating me is causing me to be that way but no one understands after all.

I understand how hurtful it is to be unable to keep friends and sometimes just when I thought I have someone to call a true friend, they turn out to be so different and some even betray me and all. My childhood is pretty traumatic too and affects me until today. I am sorry to hear about all that you are going true but I wish I can comfort you.

You can write to me if you wanna. Please take good care... :hug:

 

[Jess]

If I could find a reason for them not wanting to be around me at least I'd have that.. I can't even come up with that I'm so messed up

 

[gentlelady]

Jess hun, you are not messed up. You have had many ups and downs these past few years. Struggles that are because of a reason. Anyone would have difficulties dealing with much of what you have had to. Not everyone runs away. When you were feeling particularly vulnerable you pushed us away, but guess what? We were still here for you when you came back and decided it was time to reestablish contact. I am glad that overall things have been a bit better. Remember we ar here for you in bothe the good and bad times. You are a wonderful person to know. Thank you for allowing me the priviledge of doing that. :hug:

 

[~CazzaAngel~]

Awww :sad: :hug: :hug: