I am a member here but I feel worthless and too ugly and stupid to post in the suicide forum. I've realised that nothing's ever really going to get better for me. Everytime something good happens it gets taken away. Every time. I feel self concious and stupid practically all the time. I talk to people on this site on messenger but they block me soon afterwards. I can't concentrate on anything except tv and the internet. I'm a stain on my family. I hope you all get better, but I've realised that the way I am just doesn't make me able to fit in the world. I can't sit around waiting for my life to change...I don't know...yeah.