I'm comitting suicide tonight, I think.. I'm like confused or something, I dont really know, but my plan is that I will die. I have always had sort of a need to die, like that's my destiny or something. I feel that I never should have been born. I just don't belong here. I have been planning my death for some time now, and finally the day has come, but I feel rather sad when I think about what I am doing. I am currently in the mental hospital and I have told my terapeut that I have a new plan, ( I have attempted suicide ALOT of times before) but I lied and said that it wasn't before after next weekend. I guess they'll all have quite a shock tomorrow, and that is why I am sad. I wish I didn't have to do it today, I am usually not this sad when I have these plans, and so I kinda thought that I could wait untill I wasn't this sad, but I can't. I can't wait, I have to do it today.. God! im confused!!