Things are just shit. I was all gay and happy about this gig im going to tomorrow night. Then yesterday im waiting for the bus after training and my dad calls me. Guess what, your x bf has been hanging round watching the house for the past few hrs, are you ok? Have you seen him? I hadnt. I get home and try to go to sleep. My friend calls me. Guess whos been here for the last 2 hrs. We used to hang out together is all. So what does she do when he knocks on the door? Invites him in for tea. Then he was still there talking to her bf outside and she calls me and says forget what happened and forgive him. How the hell can you forgive someone for raping you and beating you half to death? She knew what happened. Yet she would feel different if it had happened to her. Oh and the best part ... this gig im going to with her. She told him about it. So i bet he will be there tomorrow night. Im scared. But i will ignore him and scream for help if he comes anywhere near me. After the gig im not going to visit that friend anymore. I swear some ppl just have no idea. My first ever bf when i was 17 ffs keeps coming back again and again to plague me. The $%&^&. He just wont leave me alone. Im going to the police this afternoon to see if they can help me. I bet they cant. Its your word against his. What can i do? Run from him forever? Bring it on asshole. I'll kill you before you kill me.