I'LL TRADE YOU FOR THE NUMB And then it crashes down. smashing into you brain like a tidal-wave of angst everything thing you've been pushing to the back of your mind rushes to the front enough to make you dizzy Your screaming in you head that wish you were dead, Cause if you speak one word you'll really wish you were sinking lower and lower, drowning in your wasted years, and sub-par life. because you know you could and should have been more than you are now nothing else can compare to the despair or knowing just what you are A fucking low life scum-sucking SL*T, a god damn liar, you suck and leach, just a drain on all that is around you a fucking black star, sucking the good and life out of everything around you but only for a brief bit. and then you OK once again. but these, these are the moments when suicide is once again a VERY real option and you feel even worse than ever, because you promised that you'd never kill yourself these are the moments. when you just might go too far and never ever come back. I'll trade you for you numbness, any day of the week. Cause I feel fucking EVERYTHING.