I am 16 and I can't handle the pain...
Since I was little nobody wanted me, neither my mom or my dad and they both beat me multiple times. Also, the other kids always made fun of me because I was fat and was always left out, so throughout my life I was always home alone, grew up being shy and with no friends. The other kids even threw rocks at me just for fun...
In the last years, my dad died and after I lost like 30 kg (66 lbs), changed my hair, my clothes, my behavior just to be accepted by others... and it paid off some time when I was feeling for the 1st time good. But in the last months everything shattered when I realized how a lot of people consider me as junk and don't give a sh*t about me... and today I had a massive breakdown for years and I just want to die... no need to say I've never had a girlfriend in my life and I feel like crap when I see two mates kissing when I never had the chance even to be loved by others...
Since I was little nobody wanted me, neither my mom or my dad and they both beat me multiple times. Also, the other kids always made fun of me because I was fat and was always left out, so throughout my life I was always home alone, grew up being shy and with no friends. The other kids even threw rocks at me just for fun...
In the last years, my dad died and after I lost like 30 kg (66 lbs), changed my hair, my clothes, my behavior just to be accepted by others... and it paid off some time when I was feeling for the 1st time good. But in the last months everything shattered when I realized how a lot of people consider me as junk and don't give a sh*t about me... and today I had a massive breakdown for years and I just want to die... no need to say I've never had a girlfriend in my life and I feel like crap when I see two mates kissing when I never had the chance even to be loved by others...