I'm so coward and weak even to take off my life. I can't bear living anymore and I can't take my life away... what should I do? Sometimes I miss having doctors who can put you to sleep like I did to my dog (I miss him so much, had him for over 13 years). I hate myself in many ways, I hate living where I had to live, the only thing I want so badly that makes me wanna live forever is a baby, and my husband doesn't want him. What should I do? I feel weaker and weaker each day x-x it seems endless.. Is there any painless way to die? Like passing-out before the death itself?