Hi its me again. Do you ever get the feelng that however much effort you put into something you are still shit at it. This is how I'm feeling at the mo. I am such a failure at everything I do I just want it to stop! I just dont want to keep going though failure after failure, having people look down on me and then feeling even worse. I f*cking dont give a shit anymore. I just dont want to be here, I've never wanted to be here. I just want to die and my family think I'm so selfish for thinking it even when they see how much I'm hurting. My life will not get any better I've been trying so hard for so long and it never gets any better. I hate myself. I cant see any light at the end of the tunnel for me even when Im happy Im sad inside.