I'm really hating myself right now. i'm a horrible person. i was short of funds recently and what did i do? got sucked into playing an online game, which i CANT get ahead in no matter what i do. pointless waste of money and i hate myself for it. lost a loved one in september and the game became a distraction from the grief. its just gone too far. how can god forgive an idiot who wasted money when financially struggling? dont even want to LOOK at myself right now.