I'm almost 40 years old and I'm a loser. I have no job (and have been fired so many times, it's unlikely I can get one), no education, no kids, nothing. Every day it's a huge effort just to get out of bed and when I do - I go out to the couch and go back to sleep for a few more hours. My husband doesn't know that I've been thinking about suicide, but I think he would be better off without me. I've ruined my life and there's no way for me to change everything I messed up. I'm scared to fail at suicide and have something else that I'm bad at and then let others know that I tried and failed...again. I'm not sure what to do with myself, but I can't keep going on like this. I'm just a loser.