Hi all I'm new to this forum but I've spent alle night yesterday and most of today reading a lot of threads. And I must say I feel really bad for all of you who suffer from depression and suicidal thoughts. Depression runs also in my family, my dad has been admitted to hospitals many times due to his depression and it has been really hard for him coming throug the dark times. I haven't experienced depression on my own body yet but right now I am at a really bad place in my life.It feels a bit like I'm in a big hole from where I cannot see an escape. I'm on my fourth attempt getting an education, I have a hard time following things through. Also this time I'm close to dropping out, mostly because I have so bad social skills and feel so alone. I constantly think about what others be thinking of me and that makes me choke. Furthermore my girlfriend just dumped me. I thought I was going to spend my entire life with her. That was a really bad blow for me and I feel so weak. I can hardly get out of my bed in the morning. Anyway, my thoughts a circling around suicide at the moment but perhaps it's just because i feel so sorry for myself. Quite pathetic, I know. I hope tomorrow will be a brighter day. I hope also for all of you.