I'm A Lost Cause!

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by lostcause, Dec 30, 2007.

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  1. lostcause

    lostcause New Member

    I have a chronic illness and the effects are kinda like the female menopause, hot flushig, irregular body temp and generally feeling ill 247. My illness came about after misusing roaccutane a treatment for acne when I was around 13. Never had sex or been close to a female and feel totaly alienated from the opposite sex. Ever since 20 I realized my only "realistic" chance of fulfilling my sexual desires was to see an escort.

    But I was devastated to find that an escort would not see me due to my illness and me been a complicated client they just don't want to deal with me. Now I feel like a total lost cause and I feel wasted and suicidle. My sexual desires are a burden and it's driving crazy as I can't fulfill them, It's really eating me up! Doesn't help I live in a sexed crazed world and I just can't get a piece of the action :rolleyes:.

    I seem to be developing ill feelings towards the opposite sex because I feel abandoned and not given the time of day even by a escort. How messed up is that! I guess the world moves too fast and spares no thought for someone in my shoes. And worst thing is I'm a good honest guy never stood on others toes to get what I want, but hey you get nothing for been a good descent person, just a pat on the back.

    I'm just a lost cause now and the only way to end my constant suffering and torment is by suicide. I would prefer to seek legally assisted suicide abroad, but I feel unable to travel. Been realistic I know suicide is inevitable one day. In the mean time the thought of suicide is a comfort for me.
  2. Only1?

    Only1? Active Member

    Hey, Im sorry you have found yourself in this predicament. Have you investigated all avenues with treatment for your illness? I cant help but wonder if theres something out there, even if its not ususally used to treat what you have. How do you find your doctor? is it worth seeing someone different? Please dont give up hope. There is always a way to get through shit, it may take time, but it will surely be worth the fight.

    Say hi to me in chat sometime, or if you need to talk drop me a pm. Im happy to listen :smile:
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  3. Panther

    Panther Well-Known Member

    Trying to see an escort is not going to be the greatest idea. There are probably more people than you think who aren't having sex all the time, me being one of them. The biggest thing is your illness. I'd agree with what the previous poster said. Is there anything that can be done about it?
  4. lostcause

    lostcause New Member

    Thanks for the replies!

    I've seen my doctor my psychiatrist my psychologist my dermatologist and all can not help improve my illness. Now you know why I feel like a lost cause apart from not been able to get layed by an escort :laugh:

    So yes my illness is the main problem and that I have come to accept, but it's the things that I can't enjoy that is really eating me up now.
  5. Panther

    Panther Well-Known Member

    Is there anything you CAN enjoy? I'm guessing you're convinced that girls aren't going to like you because of your illness.
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