Hi. I haven't read a lot of posts so I'm not very familiar to this forum. I located it simply by typing in various URLs. I, (as I expect most of you) have had suicidal thoughts. They are usually not traditional ways of taking one's life. I think these thoughts come from an extreme lack of motivation. I have no direction in my life. I have no friends. Barely any intrests. I'm not alive, I simply exist. If I could just disappear, leaving no memory or trace of my existance I certainley would. These thoughts are usually fleeting but I feel a need to address them.