I feel like I am a nobody. My whole life has turned out to be a disappointment. I don't have very many friends. I don't have a license (because I'm such a failure and loser) so I can't really get out of the house much. A lot of my interactions are online as a result. I run a successful website online but it is only through sheer luck that it happened and nothing to do with me. I proved this by disappearing for a week and nobody even noticed. I have over 700 people on my AIM buddy list. Unless I message them, I can sit online all day long without anybody talking to me. It's like I don't exist. This is especially true of a girl that I met and fell in love with. I've had these feelings for years and finally told her a few months ago. She has no feelings for me. She once told me she considered me one of her best friends but she barely ever even talks to me so that was probably just to make me feel better. I must admit this is probably 99% of the reason I feel so inadequate these days. We are a perfect match. Why can't she at least give me a chance? What's wrong with me? I've been looking for a girl like her all my life and finally found her and now that we can never be together, what do I have to look forward to? I'm 25 years old by the way. She's not the first girl to have rejected me. But she is the only girl I have fallen in love with. It feels like if I disappeared today, more people would be happy than sad. Very few would probably even notice outside of my immediate family. I'm a nobody. Nobody cares so why should I?