ive been with my boyfriend for a year and a half now. and before we started dating we slept together for about 6 months, give or take. during those 6 mnonths, i had 2 boyfriends, one was just ending when i met my current boyfriend, the other one didnt last long (he was a huge player) and my current boyfriend knew i had boyfriends while we were fucking. he had a girlfriend too. anyways, i made a bad decision and ended up with chlamydia. i told him, we got it sorted out and dealt with. the next day i was horny and got out my toy, i did my thing and whatever. a few months into my relationship with my boyfriend, i had symptoms of chlamydia again. i forgot to thoroughly wash my toy i guess. dont take that the wrong way, i totally wash it after every use but its got little bumps and things on it which makes it harder to get everything. i have never cheated, havent even thought of cheating, hes the love of my life and now a year and a half into our relationship i somehow have to tell him that i have chlamydia again, convince him i didnt cheat and get this dealt with because weve been talking about kids. i read somewhere that chlamydia can cause infertility and other bad things if untreated and now im scared to death that im infertile. all ive ever wanted is to be a mom and if i cant have kids ill kill myself, there wont be a purpose to living if i cant be a mom. i cant lose my boyfriend, he is the only reason im doing so well compared to before i met him. i dont know what to do. im a terrible person for hiding this for so long and i know it but im terrified to lose him. hes pretty much everything to me.