Nobody really hangs out with me. It took me awhile to figure it out and get the picture that Im just a loser when I realized that FRIENDS text you on a daily basis or once in awhile. I havent gotten a random text checking in on me for randomness or funness in about 4-6 months. The others group chat all the time to talk about anything and have fun. I havent spoken to any of them. Partly its my fault maybe because I distanced myself from them. But my reason for doing that is because I hate them. Only a certain few though. Its because I told them how I was suicidal and now they wont talk or check in or even acknowledge Im alive anymore. Im just a waste and a drag on resources for the economy and everyone around me. Maybe it is better if I actually killed myself.