i guess, sorry i havent been posting much ive just blanked out the past month or so its not getting better, i got engaged. would have thought id be happy huh? but not even that makes me happy. i love him but he cant fix me. no-one can fix me. i know im no good he can do so much better than me why would anyone want me? im a fucking train wreak. truth is everyones better off without me.