I used to be a happy person, but past events ruined my mind and made me socially messed up and depressed. My life is already terrible. I can't see my life getting any better with all the crap I have to face, yet. I'm guessing this is a normal fear though. I'm sure there's lots other who feel the same way about the future. Do you think this is just a phase? Sorry, I made this a little short. I'm tired as **** and need to get to bed.