I'm not really sure why I even bother to post here, but I guess sometimes it helps me make sense of my thoughts if I write them down. So I just got home from the store. I purchased a few bottles of pills. I would really prefer to have prescription pills, but I cannot afford to see a Dr. to get them(no health insurance). Also the reason I am unable to get any professional help at this time, not that I really believe that anyone could help me. Anyway, I'm sure that what I have will do the trick. I just can't be "here" anymore. I'm so empty and alone. My thoughts are so scattered, the only thing that I can really focus on is "leaving". I have 3 letters to write, one to my husband, one to my daughter and one to my son. Then everything will be ready. I can't live like this anymore... I just can't and won't.