I am at breaking point... I cant give a fuck about any of this anymore.. I just cant do this. I cant stop crying, I cant stop cutting. Im really craving a drink righ now. I cant phone anyone. I dont want to phone anyone because Im sick of getting told that I am only wanting to top meself for attention otherwise I would just do it so fuck it... Ive got my way... Ive had enough now. These thoughts are stopping tonight. When I take my last breath.