Im alone

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by Abused addict, May 26, 2016.

  1. Abused addict

    Abused addict New Member

    I miss home. And I don't at the same time. I live 26 hours away. I miss my siblings. but I don't miss my verbally, physically, and emotionally abusive Dad. All the time I was at home, I knew that he hated me. He's a pastor, and I don't think the same way as him. Guess I deserve it.

    I keep watching porn and jerking off because I just want to feel loved. No one has hugged me in over a year. I just want a hug!!!!

    My youngest sis is the only one in this world that I think cares for me. She would get my mind focused on other things. Now I can't talk to her because Dad blocked me on her phone. She doesn't know, I can't get up with her.

    I work in construction, doing a crap ton of work 70-90 hr weeks. I don't have time to even be on here, but I need help. Please, I'm so alone. Why does no one love me? I don't cuss, or smoke, or drink. The longest I've had a girlfriend was 2 months, then she rejected me. I gave her what was left of my abused heart, and she broke it.

    I need a home. I'm alone in this apartment, needing to wake up in 5.5 hrs for work. I need people. I have no one. So I'm going to a random site to find people.

  2. Rockclimbinggirl

    Rockclimbinggirl SF climber Staff Member Safety & Support

  3. sahel

    sahel SF Supporter

    I am sorry for the way you feel, is there anyway to let your young sister know about blocking?
    I know it's not as good as real word or family, but people here care about each other. May you find it helpful.:)
  4. undercoverlover

    undercoverlover Well-Known Member

    hey there. welcome to the forum! Im so sorry to hear about what you're going through, I've been there before and it's terrible to be alone, especially being an abuse survivor. do you have places in your town that you could get out and meet more people?