i am alone i have no one to turn to. everything is so black right now. i should be happy, i have 3 kids and they are good. but i am raising them by myself. the only thing that keeps me from giving in to my struggle is the fact that i can't leave them like that. but they are still young they would bounce back quickly if i just gave up now. i don't know how much longer i can keep it all together. i am full of shame i am a hideous and horrible person. ihate myself and i just let everyone down. i can't tell anyone my shame noone around me can know that i cut myself. ican't tell anyone why they don't want to hear it. i am sorry i wasted your time and this space to post my own stupid nothing. this space could be better used by someone more worthy.