Im alone

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by xXWhateverItTakesXx, Mar 7, 2011.

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  1. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    Im alone here, I feel like i want to explode just fucckk!!

    I can't pretend anymore. Someone...?
  2. Stormrider

    Stormrider Well-Known Member

    Don't explode, it leaves a mess :)
    I know being alone can be hell, just got myself together again after several weeks of baing sad/angry 24/7 a bit of cursing and ranting on here helped me a bit, it's always better then bashing my head to the wall
  3. GoldenPsych

    GoldenPsych Well-Known Member

    You don't have to be alone. The first step you have made is by joining this forum as there are many people in the same boat.

    Have you been to a doc or anyone about the feelings before.

    I know how lonely the illness can be. No one is feeling what you are. It really helps me using the forum as I know I am not alone and there are other people feeling the same way.

    What's going on for you at the moment. xxxx
  4. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    It's only at nights, but even when Im with my bf, I feel alone in a way.

    Alone with my feelings, he will never understand. I can't get through the nights alone :( I'm a fucking waste
  5. GoldenPsych

    GoldenPsych Well-Known Member

    I know what you mean. It is pretty normal to fee like you do. Have you tried distraction techniques?

  6. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    I have been around here since 2007, and I know it can really help me at times. But not always. I have been to my GP, but that didn't get me anywhere...

    I had a panic attack tonight, and my bf just didn't understand why. He can't see how depressed I am, he wants and somewhat, needs to think I am perfect.. UGH!!! Fucking just get me out of here!!

    My only distraction is SH >__<
  7. GoldenPsych

    GoldenPsych Well-Known Member

    Use writing as a distraction. Come on here and reply to loads of people (that's what I do) write a blog (i do that also). I find writing a good distraction as keeps my fingers and my brain busy.

    Music is also really important to me and I use that as distractions.

    I know what it's like to have a boyfriend who doesn't understand. My ex once said to me "have you tried just being happy". It didn't go down to well. It's really hard to explain it to someone.

    Try another GP. Sometimes it can take a couple before you find one you can get on with and one who understands you, or one you can manipulate in to giving you what you want :) Ask for a referral to a psych.

  8. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    Thanks hun, Some good ideas there. I do like writing but I just feel all the energy has sapped out of me atm. But I have replied on a few threads.

    Music works for me, but I know I will just end up finding depressing songs. And yes another GP might be an idea..but I don't know what I want, apart from not existing... x

    I am actually doing some digital graphics as I type, It's helping but I don't know for how long...
  9. GoldenPsych

    GoldenPsych Well-Known Member

    Tell the GP that. You want help but you are not sure how you can be helped.

    Ask for a referral to a psychiatrist.

  10. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    You know, I am not even worth that. Not worth the money, or hassle or anything. People kept me going on a day to day basis, but just not anymore..
  11. GoldenPsych

    GoldenPsych Well-Known Member

    You need to get out of that mind set as it damage you.

    Tell yourself you are worth it. I have worked with many different people and some are not worth it but you do your job and give them what they need anyway. But you are worth it and you deserve to be treated.
  12. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    No I don't :( I am just another number.

    Sorry, I feel so fucked...
  13. GoldenPsych

    GoldenPsych Well-Known Member

    You're not though.

    Please call your doc surgery tomorrow am and get an emergency appointment. The longer you feel like this the worse it will get so you need to see someone soon.

  14. xXWhateverItTakesXx

    xXWhateverItTakesXx Forum Buddy

    I cant.... i need pills ufhghhh

    Ill go now, and probably be back :(
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