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I'm already dead!!!!!!!!!! Help

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by timmay20, Aug 14, 2009.

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  1. timmay20

    timmay20 Member

    Hi everyone.

    I had went to the doctor and found out I have a low white blood cell count, so my doctor suggested that i take an HIV test. I did but I'm scared of the long waiting process. IF this test comes back positive I will kill myself, for sure. All ask is that many of you keep me in your prayers.:blub::nerves:

    P.S: I would thank you all for reading my post. I'm so scared dealing with this situation.
  2. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    :hug: When will you get the results back?

    I hope it goes well x
  3. pisces

    pisces New Member & Antiquities Friend

    I wish i had some wonderful words of wisdom for you but i dont but you are in my prayers:cuddle2:
  4. timmay20

    timmay20 Member

    Thank you for responding.:sad:
  5. sweetpea0

    sweetpea0 Well-Known Member

    I will keep you in my prayers.
  6. Godsdrummer

    Godsdrummer Guest

    Prayers are on the way!
  7. lifeisashedog

    lifeisashedog Well-Known Member

  8. shades

    shades Staff Alumni

    We will do that! And we are here if you want to talk. Please keep us informed!
  9. SickBoy

    SickBoy Active Member

    Sorry, I'm not praying, I'm quite anti-religion.
    I really do hope things work out of you though. :smile:
  10. timmay20

    timmay20 Member

    Thank you all. I promise to keep you all informed.
  11. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I will pray all goes well let us know okay remember we are always here
  12. timmay20

    timmay20 Member

  13. timmay20

    timmay20 Member

    I'm still waiting the results, I just want to die.:depressed
  14. timmay20

    timmay20 Member

    God help me!!! will somebody help me!!!
  15. boo

    boo Well-Known Member

    thats a hard time you have to go through. I hope you will get well
  16. Epical Taylz

    Epical Taylz Well-Known Member

    i hope that everything goes well,
    i can't pray for you because i'm agnostic.
    however i will have my friends pray for you
  17. closertolove

    closertolove Well-Known Member

    if i were sure there's a god or someone, id pray for you

    sending my best wishes
  18. lifeisashedog

    lifeisashedog Well-Known Member

    Relax, it's just HIV test not pregnancy test. I mean even if you have a virus you don't need to feed and clothe and school it for the next 30 years. :laugh:

    Take care, will you.
  19. April

    April Member

    It doesnt take a genius to realise that you are unquestionably freaking out. I cant blame you and have no idea what you must be going through but i understand your panic. its normal but overwhelming. If you find it best to pist long repitive post here please do (I used to send insane texts all the time, desperate to run for my life to anywhere).

    Try to remember that you are not living in the time of the black plague. Even if it comes back positive (touch wood), there are options. You can live for years with the disease and never get AIDS. Please dont deny yourself the opportunity to fight this. People do defeat the virus and go into remission. Let your doctor try new drugs, try AZT, you will be shocked how well people can adapt to their circumstances. You do not need to die from this. All you need to do is try to remain clam (however you can) and hope for the best. A positve outlook can have amazing affects on a person physical state.

    "I find some of what you teach suspect, because Im used to relying on intellect, but I try to open up to what I dont know because reason says I should have died 3 years ago"
  20. afriendlyguy

    afriendlyguy Well-Known Member

    I have had(and I still have) the same problem with HIV test, like many people. Before saying you are already dead, please have a look at the life expectancy of people with HIV/AIDS who take medication. It is very high and finally you would only lose some years(maybe only 10), because everybody dies someday. Death is just the normal outcome for everybody, with or without disease.
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