Welcome to SF. <Mod Edit: Abacus21 - unsupportive>
I have a Social Phobia and erythrophobia i cant take it anymore. Anxiety is killing me every day.
I presume you've seen a pshrink about your fears & anxiety? Those are relatively treatable conditions, via talking, medication, or both.
Note that pshrinks vary widely, and not having success with one isn't a great indicator that you won't have success with another.
I cant commit suicide myself i need someone to kill me.
<Mod Edit: Abacus21 - unsupportive>Look, there are enough murderers in the world without asking someone else to become one.
Jesus died by hands of people and he could have prevented it but he didnt so he did let them kill him. so its like suicide but from hands of other people and since jesus could do it i can too.
Sigh. A very common argument around here, even, or even especially, from the atheists. A few observations:
1. You're forgetting that Jesus was fully human as well as divine. His utterance on the cross, "My God, why have you abandoned me?" doesn't make much sense to the crowd that thinks Jesus was fully in control of the situation and, essentially, committing suicide. But if you keep his dual nature in mind (not that any of us truly understand it, of course), things become more comprehensible. He was a man who was very scared, and not at all in control of his situation.
2. Why bother making this argument at all? <Mod Edit: Abacus21 - encouraging suicide> Obviously, you make this argument because your conscience tells you that suicide isn't all right.
If you're looking for a shoulder to cry on, this is a pretty good place. And there are certainly lots of people here who are also afraid of social situations. <Mod Edit: Abacus21 - unsupportive>