I am new to this forum. I am a 20 year old guy. I just turned 20 on monday. I hate my life. The main reason i want to commit suicide is becouse my life is so fucked up. I have a Social Phobia and erytrophobia i cant take it anymore. Anxiety is killing me every day. I cant commit suicide myself i need someone to kill me. I believe in God and Jesus, Jesus died by hands of people and he could have prevented it but he didnt so he did let them kill him. so its like suicide but from hands of other people and since jesus could do it i can too. Every day is terrible i cant take it no more. I cant stand sitting in class with all those people it just drives me nuts.