I don't even know what to say really. I've never done anything like this. I just feel like I need someone to know. I've tried years of therapy. Years of different medications. I think about suicide often. I wonder what would be the best way to go about it. I never say anything to anyone. I rarely tell anyone when I'm sad. My friends are very busy. My boyfriend is absent a lot. My family goes days without talking to me or acknowledging me.. unless they need to tell me what I'm doing wrong. It's disheartening to try so hard and get absolutely nowhere. I'm not sure if I'll actually do it.. but I feel I've exhausted all other options. I just needed to let someone know.