I have been told by my dad at least that I am far too sensitive to what other people say, that I take things too seriously, too personally. I feel that its because of my weak, miserable condition compared to all the other normal, happy people, such as having no friends, girlfriends, being depressed, etc. I can't take much criticism as I get very down and depressed. For instance, one of my cousins told me a while ago that the only people in my cell phone's contact list are my mom and my dad and that is pretty much true, sad huh? Well, even if its true, that comment really hurt me and I've resolved to see him or talk to him as little as possible, I'd prefer never to see him again or his other two younger brothers, also my cousins. Yet they still want to hang out with me, they know how much they hurt me, they don't think my life is incredibly messed up. I told my dad about this and then he stupidly told my cousin that what he said hurt my feelings and so he then called me a "******". I really felt like punching him right in the face then. I just went to a party and the youngest cousin wanted me to play pool with him and my younger brother and I refused to come and my cousin was probably puzzled and a bit hurt. My younger brother played pool with him and he isn't that good and told me our cousin mocked him and cracked jokes at him about it. And like a normal person, he just laughed about it and shrugged it off. I know that I'm worse at pool than my brother and my cousin would inevitably make fun of me. I would be deeply hurt and offended and tell him to fuck off and never speak with him again. But at this rate, I will never have friends and be lonely and miserable for my entire life as my mom just yelled at me about this a few minutes ago. I guess if my older cousin makes fun of me for being a loser and only having my mom and dad in my contact list, that I should fix that by making friends, instead of sulking and never speaking to my cousins again right? Maybe he wasn't being an asshole, but that I should have taken what he said as a wake-up call? I guess that is why my mom got upset with me, because I am making the wrong choice. What do you guys think? hmy: I know eventually as I start a job for instance and make more social contact, people will wonder why I am a freak, ask "Why don't you have a girlfriend yet", questions like that. And I will be hurt and not want to speak with them, even if they probably didn't mean malice by it. I'm going to India with my dad in December and I know my relatives will ask about me getting married, get an arranged marriage, etc. Maybe its my depression taking, but I strongly feel that I will never marry, no girl will want to marry a loser like me, I will be alone and probably commit suicide soon. So, I will get depressed, pissed off and maybe even snap back at them and they will wonder why I'm acting so strangely? Actually, I went to India last December and one of my aunts said that I should have a girlfriend, what's wrong with me? She didn't mean any malice, but I was pissed off and wanted to yell at her, insult her. I don't want to be the mat for everyone to walk on, even if I am, even if I am a loser who everyone can laugh at me. But I feel like I am always the bad guy, always making bad decisions, that I am a bad person. I feel really crappy right now. :sad: Sorry for this long post, I appreciate any answers and advice, thanks!