I guess you know now that I wasnt successful. And some times I wonder if that is a positive or not. But Im here. My parents (remember that Im 49) are being over protective. They have always been estranged from me for a number of reasons. But of course they seem to want to control my life now. And friends sort of look at me a little differently. Im sure that they are thinking 'there goes the nut case' I feel stupid for... not succeeding. I feel stupid because now I have to address these other things in my life I feel stupid because my kids act differently to me. I feel stupid because I ended up in the nut house. I feel stupid because .... oh hell I just feel stupid.