I've spent all week trying new methods of getting a new PC because this laptop is fucking horrible and does nothing but give me grief. But nope. Nothing works, I'm apparently just not allowed to have anything that makes me happy. I'll have to wait until whenever I get my college money which will probably end up being the fall because I'm pretty sure I'm going to miss summer registration by the time I get done with all the shit I have to do. And by then I will have just killed myself. Oh, and on top of it I'm losing one of my best friends. Fuck my life. I'm done. I'm just going to lay in bed day and night until I waste away. Or until my parents kick me out then I'll go waste away on the street. I can't handle life. I wasn't built to handle life.