Still alive, yay. I've fallen in love with someone beautiful. I doubt it will work out but it's so good right now.
I sometimes just check this forum to see how bad I really was. I haven't had a period of suicidality now for over a year. Yay me. Still very weak mentally but uhh...
Even though no one of you knows me and even though I know none of you, I feel safe here, with you.