Haven't been here for a while and I know I'm selfish coming here now. It's just that everything is crumbling down again. I should be happy. I got a job, moving out next month... but I'm can't see the point again. feeling suicidal again. I'm scared. I know the feeling. Everything is hurting again and will become so peaceful soon. I didnt kill myself last time, but now, when everything is sorted it is beginning to make sense. I'm so scared. Someone please make it stop.