Sorry I've been away for so long...
I thought I was better. I really did. My depression had "cleared up" and gone away... only to make room for anxiety. A LOT OF ANXIETY. About everything and anything: normal teenage things like boys and school, but also things like college, turning 17 (which I did last week), and getting out there on my own.
But now my mood swings are back and I'm way confused: I've cried for no good reason, my mood can turn absolutely vicious, I started leaving some friends behing which I deemed "no good for me", suffering from anxiety, extreme irritability... it seems when I'm not depressed, I'm insane. At least if feels this way.
One one thing that made me absoultely pissed was the gyno diagnosed me as polycystic ovaries, and I googled the symptoms. AND I HAVE NONE. There is no correlation with depression, mood swings and anxiety. I mean, I should be sprouting hair from everywhere along with whole bunch of other symptoms I don't have, and I'm starting to think that visiting a shrink in the first place would have been a good idea.
Sorry to vent. I'm just... confused and scared the depression will come back with a vengence.
I thought I was better. I really did. My depression had "cleared up" and gone away... only to make room for anxiety. A LOT OF ANXIETY. About everything and anything: normal teenage things like boys and school, but also things like college, turning 17 (which I did last week), and getting out there on my own.
But now my mood swings are back and I'm way confused: I've cried for no good reason, my mood can turn absolutely vicious, I started leaving some friends behing which I deemed "no good for me", suffering from anxiety, extreme irritability... it seems when I'm not depressed, I'm insane. At least if feels this way.
One one thing that made me absoultely pissed was the gyno diagnosed me as polycystic ovaries, and I googled the symptoms. AND I HAVE NONE. There is no correlation with depression, mood swings and anxiety. I mean, I should be sprouting hair from everywhere along with whole bunch of other symptoms I don't have, and I'm starting to think that visiting a shrink in the first place would have been a good idea.
Sorry to vent. I'm just... confused and scared the depression will come back with a vengence.
