Idk, to be honest it feels weird being back here after two years of not posting and not logging on. I'm not the same 14 year old that joined this site, that's for sure. In those two years, I've graduated high school, finished my freshman year of college, spent a year and a half in recovery from anorexia, gotten a job and bought a car. It's been four years since I last attempted. Things should be going well and to be honest I just feel like I'm falling apart. I can't get to sleep and when I wake up I can't get out of bed. I'm slowly losing friendships because I don't have to energy to connect with them and it stresses me out. My depression and anxiety are both back and making it hard to be a functional person and I'm having flashbacks to some traumatic memories. I can't eat properly and I keep wanting to relapse with self harm, I don't feel like I can do this much longer. This isn't the most typical "welcome" post, but I'm back and I'll be here for a while. Some help would be great.