what the fuck is the point anymore. i don't know how to relate to anyone. i had a beautiful perfect girlfriend and then we had to go long-distance and things started falling apart and now that i want to be back with her and things were going well i found out she slept with 4 different guys and did it the whole time we were apart i cant handle this. i cant handle life. its too cruel. this cant be humanly possible. either this is a bad dream and im going to kill myself or its real life and i am going to kill myself. im sorry i couldnt be strong enough to keep living. i hope you allcan. i hope none of you ever get hurt again. i love you and i always will even when im gone.