Hi I haven't been on this forum for almost 4 years. The depression relented and the self harm stopped. Until now. Psychologist says severe depression is back, self harm is back and GP is waiting on Psychiatrist referral to make changes to medication. I SH before coming on here tonight. Suppose I should've gone online first but.... I almost posted a few weeks ago but chickened out. I never felt able to help after my crisis ended but then felt guilty for not helping others whilst I was well. Silly me for thinking I'd never be back here. But here I am needy and clingy. It's strange to go through it all again. Psychologist says at least I know it ends this time. It feels like failure to be repeating those feelings and actions again; to recognise them. Here we go again.