It's been awhile since I've been here but I'm back. I hate my life, I don't get much enjoyment out of anything anymore especially since it seems like nothing ever happens. I hate my age, because I still have raging hormones that cause tremendous mood swings and the fact that my testosterone makes me desire to have sex all the time and it makes me also want a companion very badly and to settle down. I imagine it's basic human instinct to allow the human race to survive and multiply but I hate it. It makes me feel bad because the women here are either nice and not attractive or bitchy and attractive. I'm superficial so I try to get the best ones I can but even then my game isn't great and I don't enjoy the chase at all. In fact it's very frustrating. Sometimes I'm ok then I'll have bad feelings again which seems to ruin every day for me. I'm just a pessimistic person from long time conditioning from society and perhaps even some arrested development but I just generally feel that life is worthless and often times I really don't want to be here in this world that resembles Paradise Lost.