i'm back

Discussion in 'Self Harm & Substance Abuse' started by ema, Sep 24, 2011.

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  1. ema

    ema Antiquities Friend

    i started sh again today.

    i know i'm not supposed to and i could lose my doc for this and he's the only friend i have in true life. but i got lost in the pain.

    i had pneumonia and my spouse didn't care. he doesn't care if i live or die.

    i want to die. nobody would notice. it would be good. a relief. the best relief.

    the only reason i stay is goblin, my pug, and trilly, my cat. that's it.

    why doesn't it ever stop hurting? and why does blood seem so satisfying?

    why does god hate me so much? i must be the very worst of people. there is not other explanation.
  2. Isabel

    Isabel Staff Alumni

    Hi hun,

    I am so sorry for all you are going through. I think you're a very nice person and sometimes, there is just no explanation for all the hardship that is dump on us. drop me a line any time. I'd be happy to help. *hug
  3. Speedy

    Speedy Staff Alumni

    Welcome back, ema. I look forward to seeing you again in chat. I am sorry to hear that you aren't feeling well at the moment.
  4. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    Hi Ema hugs to you hun i hope you feel better soon hun hugs
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