Hi everyone I need someone to talk to, I'm dying on the inside, and I'm not sure I can prevent it. My life changed in July I lost my full time job of five years very suddenly for very stupid reasons. I have been struggling to find gainful employment. I've taken the odd jobs here and there to make money where I can, and I've held my own, but it's created a hard financial hole to dig out of. In November of this year, my parents who lived in a different city randomly showed up at my door step and moved in. They claimed it was an emergency and I have since found out it was a lie and they had been planning it for a long time. Since they moved in, it's collapsed me financially. My mom is a chronic and abusive alcoholic and she made the first 26 years of my live a living hell. In the last month my life has turned into a constant battle. I can't leave to go earn a living without coming home to find my stuff gone / removed destroyed slowly and surely a little more each day. Life is a constant argument and a battle trying to keep what I have, and what I own from being taken over and purged. I can't afford to move away, but I desperately want to get as far away from here as possible. I want to go somewhere and not leave a forwarding address. I feel broken and unhappy and I feel like the only way I can go away and not be disturbed is by putting myself in a pine box six feet under.