hey , i hope everyone is having a good day i want to share my story i've never actully told it to anyone ,
so i'm 18 years old , i used to have faith in this life and i used to trust peaple and see only good in them
so everyone used me and bullied me i hate the fact that i am so weak and dumb and pathetic all these people hurting me and i couldn't do anything about it
i kept doing the same mistakes over and over and then i was raped 3 times 2 of them i managed to run away but the other one ..
it ruined my life i couldnt trust anyone anymore i pushed everyone away, i became very paranoid and now i have 0 social skills i don't know how to make friends or make a normal conversation
i was getting worse and worse with time the bullying continued and my parents divorced and we had some money problems and i became addicted to cutting and i tried to kill myself a couple of times , everything was so f***ed up in my life!
and the amount of pain i feel is just too much i feel like there are knives stapped into my heart and chest i feel like my brain is on fire i feel like there is a monster inside of me eating my soul it hurts so much every breath hurts .. , i sometimes think im crazy like im losing my mind
anyway i tried to make it as short as i can i think that sums it up
, its really cool to share thoughts with people who have been in my place and let things off my chest.
so i'm 18 years old , i used to have faith in this life and i used to trust peaple and see only good in them
so everyone used me and bullied me i hate the fact that i am so weak and dumb and pathetic all these people hurting me and i couldn't do anything about it
i kept doing the same mistakes over and over and then i was raped 3 times 2 of them i managed to run away but the other one ..
it ruined my life i couldnt trust anyone anymore i pushed everyone away, i became very paranoid and now i have 0 social skills i don't know how to make friends or make a normal conversation
i was getting worse and worse with time the bullying continued and my parents divorced and we had some money problems and i became addicted to cutting and i tried to kill myself a couple of times , everything was so f***ed up in my life!
and the amount of pain i feel is just too much i feel like there are knives stapped into my heart and chest i feel like my brain is on fire i feel like there is a monster inside of me eating my soul it hurts so much every breath hurts .. , i sometimes think im crazy like im losing my mind
anyway i tried to make it as short as i can i think that sums it up
, its really cool to share thoughts with people who have been in my place and let things off my chest.