I don't know what to think about my mother. I get so confused. She treats me so cruelly, but in the end makes me feel guilty for telling her not to treat me as she does.. I'll try to explain a bit more about her. My mother tends to take out her problems on me because I look like my father and she counted on my father coming back to us because I was a small child when he left us and she tried to us that to get him to come back, he did and she kind of regretted me because he didn't come back because of me. She doesn't like the fact I look more like my father. When I was younger she ended up marrying my ex step father and she knew he'd been sexually, physically and emotionally abusing me, she told me it was my problem, and told me to never tell or she wouldn't forgive me, she kept me in the situation. She has always liked to degrade me in anything possible, even now she likes to say she is coming over to visit or help out when my illnesses get to bad to do everything for myself, but she mainly just ends up coming over and using me as a verbal punching bag. (though I need her for transportation. ) After I tell her to stop verbally abusing me i.e.; telling me things like I'm worthless, useless, a waste of space, stupid, fat, never do things right, and I ask her over and over to stop, she'll end up calling or messaging me saying things to make me feel bad for telling her not to talk to me that way. My mother was also diagnosed with OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) when she was 19 (she's 55 now), not sure if this plays a part in it. What do you all think about this? Is it justified? Why does she treat me this way? I'm confused, I'd appreciate whatever anyone would have to say.