I'm not particularly sure where to begin. I suppose what brings me here is that I feel as though I am a failure.I have through choosing to neglect and abuse my body by trying to keep out any food. My hair is falling out. My teeth are too and rotted. I feel more disgusted with myself. I feel as though I had let people walk all over me and choose my life for me and when I tried to make my own decisions, they destroy me. I feel as though I have thrown my life away before I really started it. I don't want to die but I feel as though I deserve it. Like, I need to stop taking up the resources for people who will appreciate their lives. I honestly feel pathetic. I tried to make a calm response. For some reason or another it didn't get through but maybe this is better. I feel alone and scared that I'm going to hurt myself over some stupid reasons about not looking pretty. I don't know what else to say, to be honest. Thank you for your time.