I have been suicidal in the past. I did everything everyone told me to do go to college get a job. I did all that and I was not happy. I got married to an amazing woman I love my house but all I want to do us start my own business bring my family back together in a family business we all live far apart from one another I hate it. It takes guts to start your own business these days. My wife has her family close by and I miss mine. My wife feels security in working for someone else and a steady pay check. I feel trapped I need to make something happen. I just want to sell my house quit my job and start a business with my father and brother in-law and maybe a few friends. I have done a lot of growing up since high school I have been paying all my bills. I love my wife I just want to have my wife's family and my family buy some land and build our houses on the same land and work on a family business idea. I dont care about living at my own place any more. It is over rated in my opinion. I just want all the people I care about to live in the same place. I can't say that out loud not here in America. Well I just said it so call me crazy. Rant over!!!!