I'm so F***ing done. I give up, I give in, I lose, I quit, I surrender. Life, you are horrible, I'm done playing your stupid games. I've been in therapy for 5 years, at least 2x/week. My doctor doesn't understand me, I even got mad on the phone with her after expressing my concerns and said, I give up, i'm done, I don't care anymore, there is no use to even trying anything ever again. I had an appointment scheduled today, obviously after saying that to her and getting the response "you are throwing a temper tantrum and spewing shit at me" I didn't call or show up. She left me a voicemail asking when I wanted to reschedule. I called her back and said I had no plan to do so, she asked if I wanted to talk, I said no. She said I will call you back in an hour so we can talk. I don't want to talk to her, didn't she understand, I DON't CARE anymore, life is crap, meaningless. I don't have anything to add, I think that is clear as can be. I'm fed up with the system, I don't want any part of it, screw medical school, screw everything. Everything is pointless. People are conditioned, they are mean, they judge others, they are selfish. I don't want to be around people like that, who only care about themselves. Who never care enough to ask, hey how are you? This world, humans, I'm so disappointed in our race/species.