I don't get it, I put everything into making her happy- we've been friends for years, and there's always been something else there (at least I thought so). We can talk for hours about anything- one time we had a 4 hour conversation about squirrels (I know, fucking crazy). I'm completely in love with her and she can't see it. She just wants to stay friends. I DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS. Now we're at different colleges and don't even talk much anymore, and it's not the same anyway when we do. I can't make any friends here cause she's all I think about. If I can't have her, what's the point? Part of me just wants her to be happy, even if I can never be there for her the way I want to be. I feel worthless, and I can't imagine ever feeling the same way about anyone else. I don't even really want to feel this way about anyone else. I give up, so this will likely be my first and last post here. Don't even know why I'm posting this; guess i just wanted someone to listen for once- sorry for wasting your time.