I've been feeling like crap for a long time because of my step-mom. She takes time out of her precious day to make me feel like complete and utter crap. My mom used to beat me up when I was just a kid with a wooden stick if I didn't finish my homework. She yelled at me and chased me until she hit me over and over again and my two older sisters never cared enough to stop her. They never even cared enough to protect me from the people who used to bully me. Suddenly when we meet our step-brother they are so nice to him, they were his sisters, but why were they never mine? Being with my step-mom is even worse because she hates me. I thought she loved me, but I'm sure she doesn't because at the end of the day I'm not her daughter so why does she have to love me? she is the person that makes me want to die. I can't say anything back to her, even when she assumes that I'm a no good pain in her neck. I do everything she asks me to do even if not right away and she just can't be pleasant with me ever. I'd rather die than live my life right now or ever. I don't think that for aa second the people in my life will ever miss me because no matter what lies they make up, I know they don't care about me and they never will. I've learned to accept that and I will be very happy if I die soon. I don't maybe get hit by a car or something. I hate crying, but I do almost everyday because of her. I just want to die because I'm just done with life. I'm done trying. I'm done with everything including me.